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July 2009 
Hip Preparation Sequence
Posted on Jul 28th, 2009
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Stuart
Stuart
Hip Preparation Sequence (Beginner Opening Vinyasa Flow)
Access: PublicHamstring and Hip Liberation
Posted on Jul 28th, 2009
by Stuart
Stuart
Hamstring (and Hip) Liberation Phase 2
Sample Lecture on Pranayama
Posted on Jul 28th, 2009
by Stuart
Stuart
Sample Lecture from Heart of Yoga (Pranayama Sadhana)
What does 'enough' mean to you?
Posted on May 6th, 2008
by Stuart
Stuart
This is in Response to the Questions and Reflections for May 06, 2008:
Wow.
"Enough" is when I realize that instead of going up, I need to dig roots.
"Enough" is when I realize that I've been stone for too long.
"Enough" is when I've let the Goddess be all that matters to me.
"Enough" is when I've learned to love.
"Enough" is "enough" when "enough" is all there is.
"Enough" is when I realize that instead of going up, I need to dig roots.
"Enough" is when I realize that I've been stone for too long.
"Enough" is when I've let the Goddess be all that matters to me.
"Enough" is when I've learned to love.
"Enough" is "enough" when "enough" is all there is.
Movin' In with Love!
Posted on Feb 7th, 2008
by Stuart
Stuart
Om namah Thursday!
So.... I've decided to move in with Patrick. This decision was neither monumental nor particularly hard to make. However, it does bring up some interesting emotions and reactions.
Patrick is a wonderful person. He has a very wonderful, feminine heart, filled with unconditional love. Everyday he tells me how attractive I am, and how much he loves me. His deepest desire is to make a beautiful home for both of us. He is the quintessential "soccer mom" in gay male form. And, all of sudden, it started to irk me.
I know why it irked me too. Without delving completely into my own psyche, I am entirely and totally afraid of the feminine. One person described it as my "old monk karma." Another said, "you have be okay with being nurtured and mothered." Patrick is a mother, and I HATE being mothered. But it's not quite that simple. I like to work for what I get. I want to work for his compliments and love -- I want to go to the gym and get ripped and run really fast and do handstands and then have him say, "Okay, that was pretty good." I don't want to be "sexy" when I wake up in the morning with sleep nuggets in my eyes and bad breath.
I also need a hint of steel in my relationships. This is why I love Mother Kali and Durga. RAWR! Patrick and I were talking this morning, and I told him that I need him to be strict and stern sometimes. Kind of like, "Look, I'm not folding the laundry. You're going to do it and I expect it to be done now!" I know it sounds screwed up, but I need that strength in a partner. I told him a really fucked up thing too: that if he didn't show that strength that I would create a situation to make that happen. I know that sounds REALLY bad, but at least I realize how messed up I am. :) It's all part of being noticed and being needed, as strange as that sounds.
It is wonderful though to be able to have those conversations, and realize that these are growth places for us. I know that I need to learn to be mothered and supported, and Patrick is that person. I just hope that I get it sooner rather than later! :)
Just Say "Hey!"
Posted on Jan 26th, 2008
by Stuart
Stuart
Wow. I can't believe I've been on a blog writing hiatus for this long!
Life has been, as usual, utterly incredible. The last two weeks have been filled with amazing movements and information.
January 14
I had my first Jyotish life coaching session with Katy Poole. DELICIOUS! We had the most amazing conversation. Some of my notes from the session follow:
Patrick as life partner—good stuff
Patrick’s chart is ruled by Mercury - big picture versus fine details
Be like Arjuna - Purvashadha is the star of those who die in battle
Purple heart - a meritorious death
Experiencing a lot of merit
Take charge, clean it up, and move on
I am Arjuna
Don’t be limited! You can be huge!
Write my manual
Find your own authentic voice, come in to the center of authenticity
DO YOUR DUTY
It was incredible. It brought into sharp relief and put into a single dialogue all of the energies that I have been working with over the last few months. Even though I knew most of the things that she said, just hearing her same them from a place of pure objectivity really crystalized a lot of it for me. It was awesome.
January 15 - 17
Seattle with Patrick. Patrick is AMAZING. We had a great time. I got to watch otters frolic at the Seattle aquarium, which was SO COOL. We stayed at this cool funky hotel called the Hotel Deca. Walked alot around Seattle, and met up with my friend Heather for sushi, and his aunt Carla for lunch and conversation. We learned a good deal about each other on the trip, and had a really laidback time. It was great to be away and not have any conversations with anyone at work. THANK GOD!
January 18 - 20
Yoga Journal San Francisco. Gurmukh workshop on Friday. FABULOUS!!! LIfe altering! Loved it! The whole weekend just made me realize -- what the hell am I waiting for? I need to be doing this and follow my path. Get on that horse and go!
January 22 - Now
Back at work. Over it! Over it! So done with all of it! Moving on! Moving out! YES!
Spent today teaching yoga -- yummy! -- and talking with my Ann and Alvin about my relationship with their studio. YUM YUM YUM YUM! More later, probably, but want to get this out there and say hi to everybody!
HI EVERYBODY!
